June 5, 2009

I needed a coach…

Yes indeed, ladies and gents, lately I was thinking that maybe I needed a coach, and lo and behold, Maia Berens, whom I met on Twitter, dropped into my email box yesterday to tell me a spot was ready for me on her All About Life Coaching forum and that I should click myself over there and update my profile.

I did just that.
(Here I am on the train, on my way to Maia’s site.)

So now I’m on Week 1:
Monitor Your Mood

Here’s the opening paragraph to my brand new experience (I know what some of you are thinking: We’ll see how long this one lasts):

This is the beginning of your All About Life Journaling experience. This is the week where you begin to take notice of the existing state of your mind, your body, your emotional state. This is where you really begin looking at you.

For My new Goal or Action to take, I chose:
Don’t think.
FOCUS!

As for On a scale of 1 – 10, with 10 being extremely happy, rate how you feel overall in your life today, my answer was originally split between:
MENTALLY/EMOTIONALLY = 10
FINANCIALLY = 1

I entered 10 for “mentally/emotionally” because I don’t hate myself anymore. Unfortunately, it took me so long to not hate myself that I ended up losing my financial independence. Thus the “financially 1.”

What makes my present situation even more challenging — apart from my lack of cash — is the fact that I’ll be 59 in August, that I feel as though I’m straight out of prison or a fifteen-year coma, and that all I dream about is escaping this housing co-op I’ve been living in (committed to) for 27 years and being on the road. I constantly ache to see new places; meet new people; travel through Canada; the States; then go further South and discover a different world. I want to explore… to explode!

So I figure I’m an OVERALL 7.
Once I’m on the road,
I’ll be a 10 and rising!

Again, I know I’ve been jumping from one thing to another ever since I began to blog, but that’s my handicap: I start a lot of things but rarely finish any of them.

Barbara Sher refers to us as scanners. I bought her book, REFUSE to CHOOSE!, on May 17, 2006 (I always write the date on the first page of every book I buy).

This is what it’s all about:

Are you a Scanner?

“I’m fascinated by something new every week!”
“I can’t commit to anything — I’m afraid I’ll miss something better!”
“I start so many things but finish almost none of them.”
“I know I should focus on one thing, but which one?”

If you’ve thought these things, chances are you’re a Scanner, a very special kind of thinker. Unlike people who are satisfied with one area of interest, you’re genetically wired to pursue many areas, and that’s exactly what you’ve been trying to do. But because your behavior is unfamiliar — even unsettling — to the people around you, you’ve been taught that you’re doing something wrong and told you must decide on one path.

But this advice has been a big mistake. You’ve been misdiagnosed. You’re not a failed specialist, you’re a different creature altogether.

The book made me understand my “condition” and made me feel happy that I’m not alone. Still… I AM alone at the moment. In a way, I’m sort of stuck between life and death — and I make this observation in a very positive way. I swear. Cross my heart and hope to die (laughing out loud and slapping my thigh).

All this to say that I’m glad Maia Berens dropped into my life.
Could it be that the Law of Attraction is working its magic?

To be continued… (I hope!)

P.S.: I was about to publish my post when I checked my emails. Here’s what I received from TUT (A Note from the Universe), proof that I’m on the right track with all my dreams:

The baby steps in the beginning of a journey always seem inadequate compared to the brilliance of the dream that inspired them. This is natural. If the dream wasn’t so far “out there” and dazzling, it wouldn’t be worth dreaming! Just don’t be led to think that the physical ground you cover with your baby steps is all that they accomplish. Because for every mortal step you take, another cog in a giant wheel behind the curtains of time and space advances, and with it, 10,000 new possibilities.

Better than Star Trek,
The Universe

Cool, eh?
:-)


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4 comments

  1. Marilyn Robertson says:

    Oh, thanks for posting that! A Great Big Idea Book holds my ideas for me when I haven’t the focus to complete. Sometimes though, the unfinished projects are just waiting to be fleshed out…. such as a children’s story written and partially illustrated years ago has come back to be turned in to a series of twelve books that I never would have conceived at the beginning.

    Learning not to beat myself up over it has been a long slow (and not very successful) struggle. Definitely gotta read that book and see what else I can learn!

    June 5, 2009 at 6:26 am

  2. Alain Tanguay says:

    Lifecoach…Really?
    Do a little search and check out what Larry Winget thinks about them. I think you are much closer than you may realize. I think you just need to find how to focus. You don’t need a lifecoach for that. Anyway, I am sure you are going to make the best of this and take one giant leap if you keep at it.

    June 5, 2009 at 7:38 am

  3. MuddLavoie says:

    Hi Marilyn,

    TWELVE books?
    Hallelujah!

    My envy vain is pulsating — maybe I should use that envy as a motor to drive me to success. LOL

    But seriously, I’m VERY curious to learn more about this series of children’s books. Is there any way you can tell us (me) more?

    And if you read the book, get back to me on what you think of it.

    Hugs & Love
    xoxo

    June 5, 2009 at 2:49 pm

  4. MuddLavoie says:

    Allô Alain :-)

    Living alone and working from home sometimes takes its toll — I don’t get much feedback or cheering on.

    And since I’ve graciously coached a whole lot of people in my lifetime and still do to this day, not asking for anything in return because the ones I help don’t have the means to pay, well… I notice I often find myself drained, not having any more energy left for myself.

    So I guess this is why I felt the need to find some sort of guide or mentor or caring person to nudge me on and ask me the right questions in order to spark my spirit and help me to rock on!

    Yeah, I’ll keep making the best of each and every experience, and YES, I will succeed — you can bet your britches.

    Merci de t’être arrêté, my friend… love xoxo

    June 5, 2009 at 3:05 pm

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